Today, I am choosing to surrender. I am choosing to let go of the rules and regulations I have created. I know that excellence doesn’t sound like a “bad” thing…unless you are captive to it, unable to rest until you’ve absolutely given your very best to whatever it is you are pursuing.
Make a careful exploration of who you are and the work you have been given, and then sink yourself into that. Don’t be impressed with yourself. Don’t compare yourself with others. Each of you must take responsibility for doing the creative best you can with your own life. – Galatians 6:4-5 MSG
It is my job to do the creative best with my own life. I am responsible for making a careful exploration of who I am and the work I have been given and then SINK myself into that!
That means some things – such as the Philosophy, Vision and Strategic Plan paper for my Master’s degree due on Tuesday – still need to be put in their place. Taking responsibility for doing my creative best doesn’t mean locking myself up for hours away from my family and friends to write my philosophy while ignoring my limiting beliefs about time scarcity therefore not living my philosophy. Instead I need to slay this dragon or else time scarcity will continue to keep me captive, robbing me of more than I care to imagine.
I must choose to do the creative work of destruction. I need to confront my rules and regulations and preconceived notions of what excellence is and isn’t. Instead, I choose to walk in the FREEDOM that has been purchased for me and SURRENDER.
I’ve written about surrender before but I have a deeper understanding today because God has been clearly challenging me to recover the ME that was lost when I started my people-pleasing, mental ascent and striving for excellence. The gifts and talents God gave me have been choked out by no one else but me. I made choices, day after day, year after year to surrender bits of ME and instead built a version of me that is way less chaotic, creative and unpredictable and more acceptable to the expectations of others. I didn’t consciously decide to do this (and neither did you, said the still small voice).
And as God reveals to me more about the freedom in surrender, he also has been reaffirming me as a pioneer. And as an act of obedience to His request for me to live my faith out loud, I needed to take the time to write this now while I’m knee deep in the mess that this tearing down is creating in me. To declare, clearly to myself and everyone else, that today is a new day! Today I proclaim the day of my freedom.
And as I continue to surrender, I am so excited to rediscover the freedom of being ME. And I hope and pray that today you will choose freedom – to surrender and tear down who you think you are to rediscover who you really are…who you were always meant to be!
I was awakened early this morning by my awesome husband who wanted to share with me this video that our dear friend (and my life coach) Deb Miller shared and tagged us in on Facebook.
What is the dream that has got you? Start today to write a brand new ending.
30 Dream Days 
Brilliant! Love the surrender of the things people are typically encouraged to hang on to with all that they possess. Enjoy your life of discovery!